Midnight at Mountain Ranch.

Charmed is defined by Webster as an adjective meaning extremely lucky or prosperous. I am so blessed to honestly say that I have lived a charmed life. A life that begs that I pay it forward; I have had enough hardships to appreciate good things but not so many that I am jaded. I am a walking contradiction; more so even then most women. Something men never seem to understand. Something my mom said a man will some day love the most about me. Here I am talking about my prospective relationships from my mother's perspective. It is like saying, "my mom thinks I am funny" in a nasally, defensive voice. But at the same time my mom has been known to tell me the truth even when it's insulting. She wouldn't say it unless she thought it was true.

I love the rain but I hate wet clothes. I love the snow but I hate the cold. I love the beach but I hate the sand. I am contrary and agreeable, empathetic and annoyed. Life is a blessing and a curse; a burden and a joy.  

I think I have talked about this before but I think I finally understand WHY I am this way:

The colors of life are not as vibrant if you have never experienced darkness.

Just like the sun is always brighter when you have been in a room with little light. I would not experience the joy like I do in small things if I did not experience annoyances, frustrations, and even anger. I would not sing songs about Dave's Killer Bread if I was never irritated that the sink was clogged. I would never understand how precious and important life is had I not married someone that did not care about mine.

Let yourself feel things; deeply and intensely. Then tell your face you're happy and handle the situation with as much grace and class as you can possibly muster. Life might be about balance but that doesn't mean you get to be a bitch because you are sometimes awesome. It means you are supposed to treat people with the respect they don't deserve. 

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2  A time to be born, and a time to die;

A time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3  A time to kill, and a time to heal;

A time to break down, and a time to build up;

4  A time to weep, and a time to laugh;

A time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5  A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;

A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6  A time to get, and a time to lose;

A time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7  A time to rend, and a time to sew;

A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8  A time to love, and a time to hate;

A time of war, and a time of peace.

I hope this made sense. I am a little worried it doesn't.

:o) Sara.