I will wait.

I have dated a lot of men. Not in a whispered "I hear she has dated a lot of men" way. No, in a I have gone on several dates with men where nothing happened and if I am being honest some where they did. These relationships have not been fulfilling. They have left me mostly sad and always empty. I can't say that I regret them; regret seems a worthless emotion. I don't regret the relationships. I regret that I never felt good enough about myself to expect better; to wait.

To say "no I am guarding my heart for my husband and you're not him."

Does that sound trite to you? If so, the rest of this post may not be your cup of tea. Anyway, I saw this video one day that Jefferson Bethke made called "Sexual Healing".

There aren't words for how this affected my heart. Immediately. I said I would listen to that voice. I would not ask why, I would ask what. What to do. And you know what answer I got? Wait. God has always wanted me to wait. And really the definition of insanity is repeating the same action and expecting different results. So I am going to change how I do things and when God brings the man I am to be with into my life it will be different. Because we will have a friendship and a relationship with Jesus as the foundation.

That is how it was really meant to be after all.

Sara.



PS
I found this on post secret a week or so ago and thought it applied :o)