In June I had just moved back into my house and exhausted from cleaning and moving I collapsed on the couch at 1 am and wrote the following as the beginning of a blog:
In a world of 6 billion people, today I feel alone. This house is too quiet, my heart is too lonely, and my life feels too empty.
I saved it thinking that I would finish it later and moved on. I never got the chance to finish it because my life was about to become loud. Loud with thoughts, emotions, and people. Loud with happiness, fulfillment and laughter. The quiet would fade away until I would sit on my couch tonight listening to the dishwasher swish in a totally appreciated moment. I am happy in this silence knowing that there is a happy, wonderful 13 year old girl sleeping in her room. I am happy in this silence knowing that there is a big beautiful life to live. I am happy in this silence that I will have tomorrow to laugh and enjoy every moment of my existence.
My life looks nothing like I thought it would; but I couldn't imagine it any other way. I wouldn't change one moment. People close to me know how I feel about them, I speak my mind (sometimes even when I shouldn't) and I have people I trust, people I love, and a home where the few quiet moments are well with my soul.
I wish you love that is unimaginable, dreams that are unfathomable, and ice cream that is just the right temperature. But most of all I wish you a life where you are happy, even if it's not quite what you expected.
Sara
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